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Smirk Chapter 1~ Smirk ~
"No please don't leave me!" I cried in the dark room as my small crack of hope and sanity closed. I felt something snap. Was it my heart or whatever I had left of sanity? Or was it my soul becoming as black as the room with no windows or exits. I was trapped there, left there to die, alone, insane and cold hearted. Shoved away by people because of my differences. "Well at least I still have you," I whispered to myself and laughed. "You're the only being alive that could understand me! Why would I leave you?" I answered myself. This went on for hours and hours until I could not bear it. I slithered or crawled I couldn't exactly make out what I was doing over to the wall and slammed my head onto it. I didn't feel anything and as the blood dripped down my head I smiled, well more like smirked hence is where I got my nickname from. My teeth were as sharp as toothpicks and the blood just stained my teeth. I really didn't care but my other self-did. "Don't do this," she
To depression, for creating days without endWake up to the realization that you've been awake
for seconds, minutes, hours.
You've been awake in this warm, dark room
and you don't know how long it's been
but now you're conscious
and it starts again--
the pain, strong and steady, in your chest.
You gain consciousness in this too warm morning
and your thoughts whir in endless loops
because it's either that or face the weight in your chest.
Light breaks though the window, soft and unwelcome
but you take it as a reluctant gift--
a new distraction from the feelings awake in your chest.
Awake, but not conscious.
So you think yourself in circles a little while longer
waiting for those quiet pains
(the constant reminder)
to gain consciousness.
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